Laberintos, Caminos y Rincones

I wish I didn't have to talk and people could just read my thoughts...

My silences usually speak more than my words, but my silences are usually harsher... They scream at me begging me to put a stop to the madness surrounding me.

How can I diplomatically ask you if you have lost your mind???

How can I sweetly ask you to go to hell?

Have you really mistaken my silence for stupidity? have you really no clue of how insufferable your codependency is?

You blame me for being too attached, to submissive; however apparently you have confused my politeness for submission... it seems you really don't know me at all.

I might have a heart attack and die and you would have no clue that you're silently causing me mini-heart attacks accompanied by absolute  pain and frustration; and there when I'm about to speak, when I'm about to say something, it hits me that probably my words can be the cause of mini-heart attacks and frustration...

So after giving it much thought and consideration, I decide not listen to my harsh silence and keep holding it inside.

So the question still remains... to speak or not speak.

Nothing in life comes for free...
By free I don't mean money, I'm talking about the most expensive currency there is... TIME
You fall in love, you invest time on a relationship and it pays off or it doesn't ... it's simple as that.
You build a family, you raise kids, you invest time on them wishing and hoping you will eventually collect on your time investment... Sometimes it pays, yet sometimes it doesn't.
You work for years in a company doing what you love, what you don't so much at times and you hope it will be worth wild... well again my friends sometimes it does sometimes it doesn't.

So... If time is an investment, should I worry so much in spending it wisely.

After so much investment I've come to learn that you should NOT spend so much time, you should WASTE it...

Have I gone mad??? probably; but after giving it much thought, the times that have paid off are the ones I've wasted.

I'm not saying at all go ahead and do nothing... i'm saying do something expecting nothing in return.

Recently I had forgotten how much I love my job, until I "wasted" my time explaining to my team why I thought their super heroes! Yes... we have lot's going on... Yes we have deliverables... but in these months of madness I never felt I accomplished more until that day.

You have to do what you love, you have to be who you love!... Go back to basics...

I have "wasted" so much time this week and it has paid off.

So dare to waste time talking to old friends, reading or writing... waste your time doing what you love and it WILL pay off!